Hitting A Nerve

When it comes to money, we all have that spot that causes us to become very passionate and defensive if someone brings it up. For some people it's their hair/weave/wigs; for others, their store-bought gourmet coffee; and yet others, their pets, shoes/clothing, technology, or ability to dine out.

My money nerve is financial situations that deal with my girls. Whenever someone even suggests making cuts when it comes to something that affects the girls I get upset. My voice raises, my chest tightens, and I immediately begin to justify my decisions no matter what. Suggestions are batted down as fast as they're made, and each proposal is rejected. I get offended at the thought of change, and attempt to change the subject.

I have had some pretty heated conversations over this subject, and yesterday was no exception. I could not believe I was being asked to consider the idea of closing the girls' cell phones accounts to save money. "Why should they have to pay the consequences for something that was not their fault?"

Other arguments may start with "I don't care what has to go, there is no way I'm giving up __________!" or "I absolutely need to have (can't live without) _________!"

These reactions are rooted in fear and mistrust. I am unable to see my life without ___________ because, in all honesty, I am afraid to imagine my life without ____________. Having __________ in my life provides security, comfort, status, identity, or some other attribute that I should seek in God.

As I continue on this journey towards financial transformation, Lord help me to recognize the financial nerves that I have. Let me get quiet, and become open to possibilities for change that will bring me closer to financial freedom. You have started me on this journey, may I completely trust You to bring me to the end, in victory. Amen.